I'm really grateful to Google Blogger for enabling me to set up these webpages. As probably thousands, if not millions before me, this is majorly unfamiliar territory (if it can be labelled territory), setting up web pages. I don't know what to say and how to say it! Of course I really do, I could go on for hours if anyone would let me. What I mean to say is that there's been so much energy work applied here, and so many friends and online newsletters that have encouraged me to write and share my views. But on the other hand, I'm facing a tremendous amount of opposition to starting a webpage. Many of my readers will not relate, but I come from a culture which does NOT use the internet, and does NOT approve of blogging, as they believe that this leads to empty talk instead of healthy action. I hope this is not the case for me, but I have the support of certain individuals, and my own idea that this is a good and healthy thing. But it's taken me a long time. Plus, I'm a woman, and I have my own inner quietness, but I've also got some inner storms that need to be expressed somehow. So that's why sometimes, my essays have been a bit infrequent. It's also why about half the blog posts just about made it onto my screen and then got saved as draft instead of published. I'm gradually gaining confidence. I have a lot of fear that what I write I may never be able to retract...and I don't enjoy sticking to strictly neutral topics. But I am afraid. Afraid of social consequences. Afraid of spiritual consequences. I don't like fear being a driving motivator, for me or anyone else, but I will admit to having a good deal of it at the current time. Geoff Hoff encouraged me, saying that I may also regret NOT expressing myself, so here's to my renewed commitment.
Thanks for reading this,
love
Rochel
